my breakfast / Icebergs

here's my breakfast.. actually eto nalang kinakain ko for the whole day na.. wala talaga ako gana kumain.. kaya ng leave din muna ako sa work.. im too skinny na..


... kaya eto.. i don't like milk pero kailangan ko.. kaya cereals na lang hehe.. Love cereals!! :) pinuntahan ako ni switch today.. xempre namiss ko siya kahit hindi siya ngttxt.. dito ko na siya pinatulog at may work pa ng gabi.. aun sarap ng tulog niya deretso lang at hindi putol putol..

@5pm ng punta kami ng pavi para kumain sa icebergs.. kasama namin mom and dad ko..

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naka tulog lang ako... kz mg ggrocery xa... pag gising ko wla ako narereceive na messages?... ganun ba talaga pag malayo?.. kase i'm on leave for four days?.. pro cge lang im alright.. i need to be happy, mgsmile nalang ako... may reason namn siguro...

Feeling For YOU

Thinking of all the pain
you are going through
Looking at your picture
and what a lovely view

So many mysteries surrounding
and I have no clue
The thought of you
suffering is killing me too

It's a volcano boiling
with pain and anger for you
Tears drop from your eyes
cover me with morning's dew

Sitting on the floor and still
thinking it's not true
Trying to reason with my senses
and what I already knew

What happened to you?
I feel as if I'm
with someone new
Tell me baby if our hearts
still beating one rhythm not two

I long to be with you
to share your pain
and be inside your shoe
Sitting outside listening
to the birds and wishing
to be with you

Hoping to find a way to free
your heart and soul
from your taboo
With each thought your love
within my heart
blossomed and grew

So many thoughts provoking ideas
familiar only with few
Patience is a virtue
let the days show
What our love can do

home alone...

sad.. ako lang magisa sa house.. ang lakas lakas ng ulan.. lalo ako may namimiss!!!


sarap sana matulog kso may pinapagawa pa ung dad ko skin, it's okay gsto ko rin nman gawin.. hehehe.. when kaya ako makkapanood ulit ng Prison Break? bitin ako eh.. gusto ko naman panoorin ung Gossip girl, maganda daw?! hmm bahala na, wala rin kz time eh..

:-) :-(

i love you.... waaaahhh.. nakaka miss.. dapat hindi nalang ako ng leave.. i miss my friend's.. alam ko sobrang sad ni Malyn at ni Orky now.. si Pichi namimiss ko na din.. waaahhh... ;C

i will miss you....

waaaahhhh... nakaleave ako ng four days.. miss ko tummy ko.. down naman ang system sa work so okay lang mgleave.. i need rest din kase at namamayat ako at wala ng appetite..
puppy eyes for you tummy... i'll visit you nalang and i will bring/cook you some breakfast..

Father's day 06/15/08

happy Father's day!!!


03:30 na kmi nakauwi sa bahay..

kumain kami sa shakeys's with tummy syempre.. ang dami tao..

pag balik sa house inayos lang ni tummy ung ipod niya at ng burn ng Prison break pra sa Ipod yehey!! at may game na rin na dinner dash para s PSP.. excited na ako mglaro.. watch ulit kmi season break season 3 bitin pa ang bilis natapos.. hmm.. hereos nman?.. :)

Happy Monthsary! 06/14/08

happy monthsary tummy!!! i love you...

Pumunta kami sa batangas, ang haba ng biyahe nkakapagod.. I met his parents, his brothers (jed, gelo and miguel) and his brother's wife razelle.. masaya kahit sobrang antok na antok na ako at busog.. (sakit na ng tiyan ko!) :-)

pinakita sakin ng mama niya ung baby pics ni tummy.. hahaha umiiyak.. iyakin daw siya nung bata!! tawa nlng ako kz ngayon sa sobrang pride di yan umiiyak..???... ang payat niya sa pics lalo na ung face, itimy!!.. ng improve nman nagyon at least may fats na siya, beer belly?..



haha, at sa pag uwi naman.. akalain mo napasakay niya ako ng non airconditioned bus?.. no choice din nman kesa mahirapan pa kmi at matagalan sa paguwi.. at least experience din un..

I'm happy... :-)

North Park Dinner! 06/13/08

ngshopping kmi ni switch.. hehe.. :yehey may free chowking and halo halo kmi :-) puyat tuloy kmi at wlang tulog.. 3 hours lang kz ang tulog namin dito sa bahay..

nag north park kmi nila pichi at nikos.. sarap, crispy noodles.. yummy! sayang kase absent si orky at malyn..

hmmm... kahapon, ngkatampuhan na naman kmi ni tummy sa office, as usual.. pro buti naayos din naman at hindi na tumagal ng ilang araw..

ipapakilala na daw niya ako sa parents niya? :-)

sad... 06/04/08

Again and again, we fight! What’s new? This time the issue was very petty. It shouldn’t be a big deal. It was a misunderstanding. We were about to go on our break, waiting for malyn and Richie. I went out first and I told switch that I’ll wait for him outside and tell Richie and malyn that it’s our break already… I waited… We went to 711 to buy food, switch and I had a misunderstanding. He thought that I’m not inviting him and that I am just with malyn only. At 711, I asked him what drink did he liked? He is not in the mood, I asked him what would be the problem. I explained my part, then he was mad when he went out of the store. I told him that I will buy spaghetti at mcdonald leaving malyn behind at 711. I approached switch with some of our officemates and told him that I just bought spaghetti instead of rice. I offered him my pineapple juice because I know he like it but he refused. I asked him what will he eat if he didn’t buy anything..? While we were walking together with malyn, we were already arguing. It didn’t stop until It turned out to be scandalous in front of our office building up to he elevator we were shouting at each other.. He stepped out.. A guy went in the elevator, he talked to me.. "life goes on, all guys are assholes.. there are a lot of opportunities for you out there.. "

Back at my station, I took some meds and was shaking.. Richie and Malyn asked me to go out for a while to eat.. I ate my spaghetti and we drank vokda mudshake.. I'm experiencing tachycardia and my blood pressure was high.. still shaking.. until the next day i was supposed to be rushed in a hospital.. I refused.. He didn't care and even bother to ask me if i am alright.. i felt really bad.. It was too easy for him..

We didn't talk for two days.. It was a big fight.. I don't want to talk about it anymore.. it became bigger and bigger.. :(

fight... 05/15/08

We came at work, we had a fight.. i don't know what to do.. I overdosed my self with medicines just to ease the pain and just to prove something that i didn't erase any messages.. I don't care what will happen to me or if i die.. I just want to prove it, I want him to trust me.. I feel so high at that time, I even drank COBRA energy drink with my friends who were depressed as i am.. We had our lunch at Samurai, Richie and Orky grabbed some beers with Cobra and something to eat.. I ate nothing. All I can think about is that i hate my life and what else can i do to earn his trust? its like he doesn't even care, He told me to find a Bf that will come to my burial.. I cried and I cried... i feel weak, it came to my mind that I should end our relationship because I'm so tired of trying to fix it up every time we had a big fight.. Its like my efforts are not enough..

After lunch, i did nothing but to stare at my computer..i can't work well, i can't process. I asked my supervisor and my manager if i can go home early.. I really don't feel well I even told them that i will be absent on the following day. My supervisor refuse but i still insist. My friends and I have a deal that after work we will go to Aplaya.. to drink, to get rid of our problems, to be happy.. I went there, i know its not a good idea because they know i went straight home.. i just had some iced tea, we had a fun, we met Borgy. he is one one the waiters there.. he knows me, and asked me if i live in Laguna, i said yes but not in saint rose.. He knows my uncle and my cousins.. they were friends.. Haha, i remember that Richie was telling about his false teeth, i didn't noticed that.. :)

I went to Pavilion with my mom to buy some food. 11am, we got home.. i can't eat.. im thinking about him.. waiting for a single message or expecting that he would drop by to see me.. i shouldn't expect anything from him.. im just hurting myself more.. I erased his number on my phone, so i can forget txting him.. I tried to sleep, im dizzy.. i woke up at around 1pm.. watched TV.. i received a message from him at around 2pm saying "im sorry" i dont know if will reply.. i ignored it.. i fell asleep.. i woke up again around 8:30pm.. still no messages from him.. i opened my YM, chatting with my friend orky and sending emails to richie who is at work together with malyn.. suddenly, he txted me.. saying sorry for all that he did to me.. i asked my friend Joane and i forwarded his message to her, She said that i should talk to him calmly and that he was sincere.. i answered back to him through YM, i told him i'm sorry too and i will not go to work.. i dont know if we are really talking.. its close ended.. he went to work.. and there it goes.. i still dont feel that he was really sorry for what he did to me.. somethings wrong, i know.. i can feel it..