anorexic

I'm so tired of being FAT. I go through so much pain. Looking in the mirror and being unhappy every single day of my life kills me everyday. I feel that my weight gets in the way of everything that i go through on a daily basis. Going to a store and buying plus one of my regular size, from 40kg to 48kg, people staring at me, making fun of how big I am now, I hate it. I'm gonna change.. I constantly say it but it never ends up working. I just want to be skinny again.. :[